Saturday

OK, so I ahve not written in a while - like an alcoholic - I fell off the wagon over the holidays - more of a food wagon. PLus, I had my HR board on Jan 3rd which I failed. I was stress eating before the exam! Yes, another excuse.. anyway, I decided to take 2 months off from studying and just focus on getting healthy! That being said, since Jan 4th - I have been training to be fit. I have been going to the gym and Greg (husband) has been my personal trainer kicking my butt. I gained my weight back over the holidays but have taken 6 pounds off snce the 4th. It's hard but I am going to do it. By the summer of 2011 - I hope to be a size 10.  Wish me luck!

OK a week and a half later

So, it's Wednesday and I am down to 210 pounds! I have been eating well for the most part. Greg, myself and the kids attempted the gym - but the daycare was closed, so we drove home. I was bummed. I ended up meeting a friend who is into nutrition. We walked and talked about a healthier lifestyle. She gave me a lot of helpful tips. We walked the grocery store and she helped me purchase the right types of food. I am excited. I am going to have yogurt with fruit and granola tomorrow.. anyway, I have been busy with work so that is why I haven't posted.. school and studying also keep me busy! Until the next time 8)

Sunday

I had arough weekend.. I am not going to lie..holiday prties, take out from the Cheesecake factory.. but I didn't get the cheesecake - however there was a lot of rice in my dinner.. then I went to a holiday party that served only pastries and pizza for food.. nothing healthy 8) Today, I am trying to get back on track. I had a WW breakfast and a veggie sub from Subway..I have been on my feet all day getting excersize.. it is that time of month so I am super bloated.. i will wait until Aunt Flow leaves before I weigh myself... Anyway, that is all.. a struggle indeed and I lost this round 8(

Thursday

Another successful day!  For breakfast I had oatmeal, for snack I had an apple - for lunch I had a salad and for snack I had a fiber bar! Boy do those bars make me gasy! I met up with my friend Stacy. We walked the mall and then had dinner. We both got the soup. I didn't realize how tasty soup can be if you get it at a restaurant.. or maybe it was because everything tastes good when you diet - plus it was 7 p.m. and we were hungry! It was seafood soup with griled shrimp and some other fish.. I even brought some home to take to work.. I think with the Winter approaching I will be going out for soup a lot - it's inexpensive and healthy. I am proud of myself. When I had the urge to eat today, I reminded myself that I don't want to be obese. I am right now.. and I want to change but I have to work at it. I can't give into my indulgence. This is a test about will power and at this moment I am winning... Go me!

Wednesday

Not a bad day! I woke up with a headache but after some IB Profein I felt good as new. For breakfast,  I had some fruit. For lunch a salad with chicken and avacodo. For snack a fiber bar, another snack my second apple and dinner was a smart ones pizza. I went to the gym and worked out. Afterwards, we went to the McDonalds DRive Thru because Samantha was hungry.. Normally, I would get 2 chicken burgers off the dollar menu and soak them in honey mustard.. this time I passed... was it hard? yes, is it taking every ounce of me not to eat some of the kids.. somewhat... but then I remember what I am doing.. I am getting health and living a healthier lifestyle...Good night

Tuesday

So, I did really well the first day, but then on Monday, I started feeling run down. My throat was raw and all I wanted to do was drink OJ... I normally hate OJ but drink it when I am either pregnant or sick.. I am definitely not pregnant! Anyway, I drank OJ for a couple days just to keep from getting sick. It worked! But I was drinking nothing but sugar! BAD~ By today, I was feeling better. So, I am back to sticking to my life style change. I ate nothing but WW meals.. which to me isn't the best.. but between getting the kids ready for school, going to work, and then having class until 9:30 p.m. it seems like everything is done quickly. Tomorrow, I plan to make a home made lunch. Tomorrow is a calmer day. I get to go to the gym on Wednesdays... I love when I go to the gym. I get to work out and study all at once.. talk about killing two birds with one stone.. plus it keeps me from being at the house picking at food. Yes, I am totally pathetic. I need to go to eater's anonymous. I see the meetings when I watch the Sitcom Mike and Molly..  OK, well I am exhausted and having fatty food withdrawals.. Hey, does anyone want to be my sponsor? In other words, if I am tempted to eat a piece of cake, can I call on you to talk me out of it 8)

 

Good night

It's time to change my lifestyle

I eat because I hate myself and I hate myself because I eat. Ever since I started college, my weight has always been a struggle. My entire family was overweight and all have them have joined WW and lost all this weight and I am the last of the family to be extremely overweight.  I have tried multiple diets and taken off the weight only to gain the weight back and then some.. I make excuses for why I have gained the weight, whether it be stress from losing my job, or stress from the kids, stress from school, too many BBQ's over the summer.. the reality is, I can always make up another excuse.. honestly, who am I really fooling.  So, I have decided to put it out there, my weight, my fat butt, everything.. For anyone who struggles with their weight and needs any type of support, I am here. Feel free to follow my story.

Today is Saturday, November 27th. My husband took the following pics of me. Now, I am wearing black which is supposed to be the most flattering.. so basically, these pics compliment my frame LOL.

So, I am 222 pounds, the heaviest I have ever been when not pregnant.

Today, I went to the gym. I watched all my friends eat McDonalds, while I came home and had some fruit.

So, this it.. the beginning of my journey. Feel free to follow my road to becoming the Biggest Loser!

-J